'Is this a dream?' you ask, and i don't say anything because it may be a dream

Thu, 19 Jan 2006 04:42:07 GMT

well, it's been awhile. school has started up again, my classes are pretty sweet.

lately i've been so... blah. i just wish there was more time to see everyone that I want to see... i'm just soooo busy.

a few things that have brightened up my life lately:

chelsea came to visit

i got to hang out with my big and my twin

i got a single room

i started hanging out with 500005050 girls from my house, and they all are pretty chill

i've been quite productive lately

i've been taking a lot of pictures

i have fresh flowers on my desk

i got in shape over break... sort of

blood brothers and minus the bear play together on the 28th

a few sad things:

chelsea is now gone

scott is gone, he ships out to nam pretty soon

erin is gone

i have too many bills

i haven't been able to work lately

i might have to leave my single

there have been no shows lately

that's about it. sorry i'm so boring.

Fri, 02 Dec 2005 03:35:43 GMT

i'm quite disappointed, really. this has happened a few too many times.

simple living

Fri, 25 Nov 2005 22:35:39 GMT

a day late, and a buck short, story of my life....

this thanksgiving i realized that I am thankful for many many many many many things.

my REAL friends. they are fantastic, interesting, passionate, and caring. what would I do without them?

my family. as independent as i am, they are always there for me in case i fall. they are quirky and truly loving people.

my animals. they keep me sane and allow me to relax, even in the most stressful situations.

music. it allows me to drift off into my own world.

mistakes i have made. i've learned a lot about life from mistakes that I have made this year.

school. as busy as i am, it keeps my life structured. my profs this semester are sincere, interesting people.

my cousin. i know she is counted as family, but she gave me something to put my heart and soul into. she was trapped in the hurricane, and even though those weeks were hell, she made me realize how grateful i should be to have what i have.

cougar mountain cookies. they kept me going on all those late night in the library.

surfing. nothing is more fun or exciting than getting out in the water, even when it is 30 degrees and staying out there for 6 hours at a time, even when seals try to jump on your board. and if i'm thankful for surfing, that means i am also extremely thankful for wonderful folks like stacy and sean that introduced me to it and come with me and invite me whenever we go. i'm going again in less than 2 weeks! yay.

independence. i like doing things on my own and i am grateful that i have the opportunity and the drive to do things on my own.

off i go to do homework then go to work. <3 love you all.

erin marie

Mon, 07 Nov 2005 01:50:24 GMT

i had a blast at formal last night. it was amazing. all of the girls looked so beautiful.

Mon, 03 Oct 2005 17:35:29 GMT

so basically... i suck at school. i suck at my friendships. i suck at doing all of the 500000 things i try to do. i need to take a break.

Sun, 22 May 2005 02:37:03 GMT

oh, and just like the playaz palace and scott, i've taken out the trash. i hope you all make the right decision and do the same.

that trash was pretty disgusting.

Sun, 22 May 2005 02:34:25 GMT

jeopardy is on. i'm the master at it. i wish they could do father daughter teams. my dad and i would kill.

summer school is pretty rockin.

Tue, 10 May 2005 20:32:24 GMT

so i've only got one final left. i'm pretty stoked that i'll have a total of three days off before summer school. yeah.

i'm so done with german it is ridiculous. and oceanography. and geology. but i'm sad about geology. that was a great class with great people in it.

i'm sad that some people in my life are leaving soon. quite sad.

for some unknown reason, i really want to hang out with ryan schuh-doh. how do i spell his last name? no clue.

i saw jessica the other night and she looked fantastic. i am so happy for her and ryan. they've been married for two years now. christine looked great too. kelli is doing fantastic- about to marry a super hot guy who she is extremely in love with and owns her own house and is the top chick at her work. wow. i feel old.

i love you all thank you for such a great and at the same time, stressful year. i learned a lot from all of you and you helped me through this year. i love you guys.

Sat, 07 May 2005 09:26:39 GMT

hmm. post a memory of: chelsea

it was a long drive, well worth it. something we'll remember and talk about for the rest of our lives. there were balloon animals.. drinking... towing... the usual. although i already knew that i loved her, this made me love her even more. i realized how amazing she was. and how happy she makes me. it's ridiculous how much i miss her. honestly, if any of you want to know a fucking AMAZING person, it should be chelsea graham.

i love you chels

Thu, 05 May 2005 04:53:31 GMT

lame. lame lame lame lame lame

oooooOOoooooOOhhhhy

Mon, 02 May 2005 16:03:10 GMT

i am one happy girl.

secrets secrets secrets.

life

Sun, 24 Apr 2005 05:09:40 GMT

so i made an incredibly long post yesterday, and my internet disconnected at the perfect time. sucky.

i'll try again.

the past two months of my life have been amazing. i don't know what it was, perhaps i was allowing people in my life to hold me back from doing what i wanted to do. Now, I am having a blast every single day.

-- nothing in the past or future ever will feel like today -- bright eyes.... great thing to live by

school has been kickin my butt, but it's almost time for summer school, which i'm actually siked about. I've got a class with chanel (awesome) and a class with some alpha phi girls (awesome too).

which brings me to my next subject. i've beens sucked in to joining alpha phi. scary, but i'm actually pretty stoked. the girls are really great and extremely friendly. thus far, i enjoy everything about that sorority. which is weird, because i thought i would be the last person on the planet to even THINK about joining.

tracy and i decided to ditch our europe trip. both by choice and by parents freaking out. instead, we're going to go on a 4 week road trip to california/vegas/mexico type thing. and surf the whole way down and while we're there. andrew is gonna tag along, as well as cory and troy. hopefully danny will catch up with us at some point. i'm pretty stoked to spend some quality time with my friends, especially tracy. she's rad.

I'm getting my settlement soon, which rocks. I'll be buyin me a new car. bmw x5. i'm stoked.

today my dad made me carry an oven up 12 stairs and install it all by myself.

drat, it's raining.

what's been on the ipod this week:

bright eyes
at the drive-in
mars volta
minus the bear
copeland
circa survive
led zeppelin
jack johnson
blood brothers

i love you all, sorry if i haven't seen you in awhile, school is crazy. but i still love you.

<3
erin

Wed, 13 Apr 2005 16:54:34 GMT

I LOVE DANVY!!!

Sat, 01 Jan 2005 07:51:30 GMT

happy almost 2005. i hate livejournal.

Fri, 17 Sep 2004 19:29:25 GMT

damn photobucket. it tricked me.

Fri, 17 Sep 2004 07:12:54 GMT

today was a good day. tomorrow is the final day of the third week of school. we only have 16 in the semester. that's crazy stuff.

I wanna hit somebody with a baseball bat, break his fucking knees and take pleasure in it. and i know it's not right, would only hurt you and i.

tomorrow, i'm going up to federal way. there's a house show at my house, so i can't be here or my head might explode. lately i've been in way too much pain. everyday i have to lay down and just pray that my headache will go away. normally it doesn't, but i survive.

there are days that i never feel like i will be good enough for any guy. I've just got so much going through my head, most of which i have a difficult time expressing because i don't see the need, that guys will think i am holding back or that i am not opening up. oh well. their loss i suppose. there's a lot to me that no one knows about. maybe erin, but no one else. I've also kind of realized that guys that i have previously gone for weren't worth my time.

i think it's funny how i blab about the most random things on here. oh well. here are some pics for you all. well, just kidding. i can't get photobucket to work... so you'll all have to wait. but the pics are hott. with two t's.

i miss a lot of people. andrea, ben, scotty, tyesha, chelsea... the list goes on and on.

i am grateful for so much in my life.

ps. today erin and i went to the glass museum. and i saw HIM!@@@@EF@Q!R!! hahaha it was so funny. HIM= ben. a dude that erin and i obsessed over for like a month. i haven't seen him since may. he was so checking us out today. he couldn't stop looking. it was hilarious. oh well.

Tue, 14 Sep 2004 06:31:06 GMT

well... how ya'll doing? today sucked. but chelsea made it better in a simple 20 minutes phone call. i love her. she makes me so happy and knows how to listen soooo well. i'm glad today is over. i wrote this lj-cut before i talked to her. so you don't have to read it.. but i left it on here... i don't know why.

maybe girls think differently than guys.... maybe girls are stupid when it comes to relationships and frienships..... i don't know. life is just difficult for me right now. i have so much going through my head. i don't know if it is anger or sadness. i have so much to say, but don't even want to think about it... so saying it only makes it more difficult.

i wish i had myself figured out. i really wish i did. i thought i did. i wish i had someone who could be here for me but it seems whenever anyone is willing to, or wants to, things come up and change... i don't know what i'm talking about.

on a much lighter note... erin and i went out to dinner last night and it was amazing. to new beginnings. <3

i love you all so much. you have no idea. thank you all for being there for me. and making me happy.

Wed, 08 Sep 2004 07:45:17 GMT

for some reason, i just don't know how to get mad at people. i can't help it. i should have been angry today... but i love her too much to get angry. weird. can anyone explain to me why for the last few months i have been lacking the ability to be angry. i mean... it's a good thing... because i didn't want drama in my life... and i've got none... so it's grand... but it just creeps me out sometimes.

i really wish our washing machine was fixed. i'm running out of my favorite clothes. i could last a year on the clothes in my closet, but i want my favorites. dang i wish i could smell so i could see what is clean and what isn't... it's just all in one huge pile on my floor that i just try to ignore.

i'm really sick of rambling on.

tyesha i miss you so much. let's hangout asap. deal? deal. ILU <3

ADAM!!!!!!! I WILL SO BE AT YOUR BIRTHDAY PARTY!!!!!! sure... it will require me to fly all the way down to LA and then drive with you guys all the way up to anaheim... but for you... anything. that goes for chelsea as well. two vacations back to back is gonna rock. LA(even better- disneyland) and then the following weekend will be New Orleans.. the french part. that rips.

well i've got class tomorrow... so peace out loves
xoxo

alfred

Wed, 08 Sep 2004 01:20:25 GMT

he's an anoa. like woah.

iwishihadanormie: and now i'm probably going to watch full house
erin marie66: woah
erin marie66: what the full house. i wish i could watch it
iwishihadanormie: yeah
iwishihadanormie: we get cable in the dorm
iwishihadanormie: for no money
erin marie66: awesome
erin marie66: i wish i got cable for no money
iwishihadanormie: 78 channels
erin marie66: what the shit?
iwishihadanormie: for not even one money

oh man i miss scotty already

give me all your poisons

Sun, 05 Sep 2004 17:00:46 GMT

i really want to get closer with my dad. i was thinking about it, and we have a fantastic relationship... but it's more like we're friends than related... i just really want to have a good connection with him as he gets older.

i went and saw vaux last night. those guys are such nice guys. speaking of nice guys, i think last night was awesome because i was around all of my guy friends. they just make everything better. i love them.

chanel and i are going to go down to portland to shop and see my chemical romance. it should be grand.

first, erin and i are going to make breakfast. maybe waffles, maybe french toast, who knows? i love her so much. i cannot explain it. she is such an amazing person and so insightful. she always has something great to say. it's impossible to have a pointless conversation with her. she is so great. everyday i am so grateful that she is in my life. i only wish the best for her in everything she does. sounds corny, i know, but it's all true. i hope she knows how much i treasure our friendship.

well take care everyone

Fri, 03 Sep 2004 04:24:23 GMT

hey everyone... for those of you not on my friends list... I made all my old entries private. It's a new year.. and there's no point in leaving old problems up on my lj when they don't mean anything to me anymore.

every night I've been sending out my prayers for people. even if they aren't directly in my life, i hope the best for them. i hope they all know how much they mean to me and people in my life.

school started on monday. I have really rad classes. chem at 8am... ecology at 10am.. and german at 11am. nice. i've got labs and a colloquium.. but those are pretty standard.

I've got a great week ahead of me. lots of shows. brazil has a week off between tours so ben's going to stay at my house... it'll be such a good reason to go to seattle all the time.

lately I've been incredibly happy. I'm not going to name names- because everyone in my life has been making me so happy. there's this one boy... who makes me feel like I am a fantastic person. and all my girls make me feel like i have so much support and such strong friendships.

my bro and i have been getting closer too... which rocks.

chelsination's coming up here. rad.

homework time. later dudes.

Fri, 09 Jul 2004 05:17:49 GMT

so... I got hit by a car and am now in the process of recovering. I sit at home all day in my bed on vicoden and want more visitors. come visit me. thanks. bye.

Sat, 20 Mar 2004 10:11:38 GMT

I might have the great guilaoski as my picture now. Oh wait.. I do.

Stylish shades eh?

just for good measure

Thu, 11 Mar 2004 10:13:41 GMT

this was a week or so ago, but i love tony and had to put it up. besides, it's a cute picture.